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What I want

Posted at 15:00 on 5 Oct 2020 by Pandora / Blake

I want a femme daddy. A soft butch top. I want to be nurtured, protected, enveloped in softness.

I want to be spanked soundly, have my hair strokes, and be tucked up in bed.

I want someone I can lean on. Someone who'll say: stay there, I'm coming over. Who will wrap me in a blanket and cook me dinner, massage the knots out of my neck and shoulders.

Right now I'm spending all day in the caregiver role. I work, parent, keep house. I did the physical tasks my partner couldn't do while they were waiting for surgery to resolve their mobility issues, and now I do all the tasks they can't do while they're recovering.  Since lockdown started I've leaned into my strength and endurance, my role as a responsible, reliable, supportive partner and parent.

I'm tired of being load-bearing. I want to be taken care of. I want to be picked up and carried to bed. I want bear hugs and orgasms and cups of tea. I want someone who can hold me in my smallness and vulnerability. I want a big spoon who's into my Little mode, who likes me cute and excitable, who'll lustfully squeeze my bum and kiss me pressed up against the wall. I want a giver with love and energy to spare.

Do I sound ungrateful? My partner is all of these things, when they're well. But chronic pain saps a person. They don't have it to give right now. I try not to complain to them about how their health problems are affecting me. I try to support them and be gentle with them and reassure them it's okay and their needs are valid.

But it does affect me, and I have needs too.

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Tags: dating, dominance & submission, fantasy, pandemic, parenting, polyamory, real life, vulnerability

 

Good boy

Posted at 15:00 on 14 Sep 2020 by Pandora / Blake

I'm bent over the sofa, naked. My lover is punching my arse. Every thump sends deep vibrations echoing through my body. They would be spanking me if they could, but it would wake the baby. Punching is quieter.

This is the first time our little one has napped without being held. They're one year old. During lockdown, without any outside support and with a baby who only sleeps on my body, we've had barely any opportunities for adult play between the two of us.

I've been craving a beating for months. This is the first chance we've had.

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Tags: cunt punching, dominance and submission, Felix, gender, gender euphoria, genderqueer, impact play, kink, non-binary, parenting, play, punch play, trans, transgender

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How to shoot porn during lockdown

Posted at 11:57 on 14 Apr 2020 by Pandora / Blake


Image description: A white person with a black bob is taking a selfie while wearing a smart burgundy school uniform with a striped tie. Behind them is a chaos of books, laundry, tripods and other shoot paraphernalia. They have a manic glint in their eyes as they contemplate the tidying task ahead.

All of us are limited by the current lockdown - no more multiperson porn shoots, for one thing, unless you're lucky to live in a compatible household. Expect a lot more solo porn over the coming months! Some performers are finding themselves with plenty of time on their hands, and the opportunity to shoot creative new solo material. Others have kids.

Even if you aren't a porn performer, if you're a parent you might find something to relate to in my working process:

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Tags: customs, pandemic, parenting, photos, porn, shoots

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